Rebirth: Bringing the System to Find a Husband

Chapter 213 The current seat

He calmly said: "At that time, I was too young and too paranoid. I always thought that only darkness was real, and that in reality there was only cruelty. Everyone was hiding in falsehood, without exception. If you help me, I will also help you." I once doubted your intentions, but finally I figured it out, no matter what your intentions were, at that time you really helped me and gave me a way to survive, and then you gave me a different life Lu, it can be said that you have changed my life, and these alone are enough for me to thank you."

He said these words from his own heart. Over the years, he has always thought so. He said: "Actually, there are too many things in this world that I don't understand. I really don't understand. I can only... say hypocritically. My son, I can only stumble around with my innocent eyes open, covered in bruises, I still don’t understand, I resist stubbornly like a cub, I know I can’t resist the changes this world makes to me, I know that I will change one day , I can only delay the world's changes to me, because ah, I only have this bit of stubbornness, without my stubbornness, I would no longer be me."

After finishing speaking, he smiled awkwardly: "It's embarrassing, isn't it?"

He was a little embarrassed, what he just said was hypocritical and second-rate, but those were also what he said in his heart,
After hearing this, she only replied: "You have such a clean heart."

"Actually, it's not clean." He sighed, his heart was not clean, if he was clean, he wouldn't ask her anything, and he wouldn't have delusional thoughts about her. He said it plainly, saying, "Just Because I like you, I have a guilty conscience when I get along with you. I can’t communicate with you normally. Even now you may think that I am in a normal communication state when I talk to you, but I know I am nervous .”

He thought for a while and said: "But you don't have to be nervous, I know I'm not good enough for you, I just like you, I won't do anything excessive to you, and I won't disturb your life, you can do Anything you want to do, I just tell you, I like it."

He knew that his liking would trouble her and be a kind of stain, but he still couldn't help but want to tell her.

Her expression after hearing it was just as he had guessed, not pretty, and even a bit embarrassed, she sighed, and said directly: "Once some words are spoken, there is no room for change. Tell me how to get along with you as if nothing happened."

He didn't know how to answer after hearing this, so he had to say sincerely: "I wanted to bury this kind of thought at first, but I know, you must know my thought, so I told you directly. I never thought of giving you cause trouble."

Nie Shuangyan frowned and said: "It's your business that you like me, but you told me, then this matter is related to me, I have to tell you, just like you said, I don't like you. It's not that you deserve It's not worthy of me, but because I have someone I like, then other people's likes are not important to me, so even if I know that you like me, I just know it. Respond, I think you should understand."

He didn't know how to answer, so he had to face her in silence.

After a while, she murmured to herself, "He's so stupid."

He opened his mouth, not knowing what to say. He had a vague feeling that she already had someone she liked, and that person was not him.

But he still didn't give up and wanted to hear her say it himself.

She looked at the void with empty eyes, and sighed: "It's so stupid, he told me to wait for him to die, find someone who loves me, remarry and have children, and live the life a woman should live. What is a woman? Should a woman be trapped between the family and the kitchen for the rest of her life? A woman is destined to marry, so should she sacrifice for the family? When a man is busy with his career, he starts a family and starts a business. If he does what he wants, he is unrestrained and unrestrained .So women are busy with work, they are strong women, even the women themselves have three points of ridicule, five points of contempt for a strong woman. If you do what you want, you will say that you don’t care about your family, and you say it’s out of line. This matter How ridiculous."

Xi Fu waited for the answer, but his expression was in vain. The answer was not good, and it was not what he wanted.But what else could he do but accept it.

He gets along with her only because of her soft heart and because she treats him well.

No matter how nice she is to him, what's the use?
To love is to love, not to love is not to love.

Everything cannot be forced.

Nie Shuangyan seemed to notice his ugly expression and asked kindly: "What's wrong with you? Is everything okay?"

He doesn't know where to start to answer, it's hard to answer, because you don't love me, so I'm sad, he can't say this.

Therefore, I had no choice but to answer with a smile: "Nothing."

He didn't know how ugly his smile was now.

Nie Shuangyan couldn't stand it anymore, and persuaded: "A good man should have the world in his heart, how can he indulge in the love between men and women? Xi Fu, I have told you more than once that you have very good talents, as long as you don't let them Being buried, you will become a very powerful person. You are different from ordinary people. Ordinary people are constantly suffering from various emotions in the world, but you are different, so you should not indulge in these emotions. You see, life is like climbing a mountain, the scenery along the way may be beautiful, but only when you climb to the top of the mountain can you see all the small mountains and see all the beautiful scenery.”

He is obsessed with obsession: "Life is like climbing. If you don't enjoy the scenery along the way, what's the use of climbing the highest mountain?"

He told her euphemistically that what he wanted was her, and if, as she said, success and fame were achieved and the people around her were not her, then everything would be meaningless.

Nie Shuangyan sighed, and then persuaded him a few more words, but he still couldn't listen.

When she said, "That love is greater than heaven and earth, but there are too many things in this world that make people unable to be together." He couldn't help asking: "He... what happened to the person you like? "

"Dead." Afraid that he would be worried, Nie Shuangyan said, "You don't have to worry about it, I've let go of it."

That's what she said, but people with discerning eyes could tell that she didn't let go.

He laughed at himself: "Look, I said those were my wishful thinking."

With such parents, he understands even more that if he really likes someone, then there will be no other feelings in the world to restrict him.

Like his father, who is willing to give up everything for his "mother", even his child is not important.

He saw her clearly. When she mentioned her dead lover, the light in her eyes was like that of her father when he mentioned his mother who ran away all those years ago.

In their relationship, he was always an outsider.

Therefore, he clearly knew that he had no chance.

(End of this chapter)