my life in japan

Chapter 52

A little thorn who had just struggled with playing turned his head and froze in place.

What about people?This ran away?
'It seems that Mizukawa-kun is really a powerful being. He disappears when he says to disappear. Speaking of which, he doesn't really know that I was scared to death...'

Not long after, the direction of the faint streetlight in the distance gradually emitted brighter and brighter white light.

It's a group of black convoys, driving on the road over there.

"laugh--"

When a car moving at high speed sees a damaged road fence, it will get off the car separately along the road fence to check the scope of the entire road.

The convoy finally stopped after seeing a wrecked car that had crashed into a tree.

"Clang--" The sound of a door closing heavily

I saw a sturdy middle-aged man getting out of the car.

"Little Thorn! Little Thorn!!"

"Miss! Miss!!"

"Miss!"

The incident happened nearby, and the people from the convoy must have been looking for it nearby.

"Otosan!"

Seeing his family members coming to look for him, a little thorn also called out to respond.

Upon hearing the response, the entire gang came running over.

Those at the back are calling people further back to come over.

"Is it okay! Little Thorn!"

In a hurry, the middle-aged man who got out of the car quickly ran over, and while asking, he grabbed the girl and checked her back and forth.

The "Ototo-san" that Ichijo Xiaoji said, this middle-aged man, Ichijo Mao, is her father, the elder of the Ichijo group.

"It's okay, don't worry."

Seeing his father checking himself so anxiously, Yiyi Xiaoji tried his best to behave naturally and not make people worry too much.

However, parents' worries cannot be dispelled by just a few words from a child. Ichijo Shigeo is still checking over and over again.

"Little Thorn!"

An old but majestic voice.

"Ojisan."

When she found out that it was her grandfather calling her, the girl also responded.

A group of convoys is divided into two groups. One group is led by Ichiro Shigeo and drives from one side to the other.

The other team consisted of a longya, the grandfather of a little thorn, and the leader of a team, starting from the opposite side.

According to the information provided by a small thorn phone call, I didn't see any abnormalities along the way, so I drove at a high speed all the way.

Until now, after seeing a small thorn, Long Ye's tense heart finally relaxed.

Then, there was another person who checked the body of a little thorn...

On a tree in the distance that no one saw, a figure with red eyes flashed past.

…………

After confirming that a small thorn was found by her family and was safe, Mizukawa left the scene.

Naturally, he would not listen to the girl saying that someone would pick him up, and just leave alone, that would be too irresponsible.

Instead, he left the girl's sight and watched from a distance.

Darkness and blackness returned to him now, hanging on both sides of his shoulders.

But what Mizukawao didn't expect was that the identity of this little spine didn't seem like an ordinary resident.

More like...the daughter and granddaughter of a gang boss...

'I hope you don't come to me...'

After leaving this thought, I left this place.

Walking in the quiet path, Mizukawao was heading to the subway station, planning to return to Kazama's house.

The foothold area is not Shinjuku area, and the law and order here is not good.

Coupled with the fact that the police said in a previous broadcast that "don't drive in remote places at night", this kind of trail becomes even more desolate.

If it’s Shinjuku area, it might be that the lights are on all night, especially Kabukicho.

"Tail, are you okay?"

The three of them walked on the quiet path without saying a word.

Suddenly he said something incomprehensible.

But Mizukawa knew the meaning of what he secretly said.

Just ask yourself if you will blame yourself for the fact that the wraith spirit killed dozens of people.

"Meow~"

Kuro seemed to also want to comfort her master. She comforted him in the form of companionship by getting into Mizukawao's arms.

"……fine……"

It's not that Mizukawao doesn't know that the resentful spirit inspired by his potential can hurt others.

However, thinking in consciousness and seeing with one's own eyes are two levels of consciousness gap.

It's like, when playing games, I always feel that I can beat others to death, regardless of the dissuasion of my teammates.

However, once they meet head-on, they realize how correct their teammates' dissuasion was.

It’s also like a fire. You see a fire on your phone or TV, and you know it’s dangerous.But only those who are actually in the fire know that the fire is much more dangerous than you think.

The same is true for Mizukawao, even though he knew that wraith spirits would harm people, he realized the seriousness of the matter when he saw it.

Hei didn't know what to say, he just burrowed into Mizukawao's arms, trying to give him some comfort.

"You didn't create the Wraith, and the person who created the Wraith might still be at large."

After a moment of silence, An said again.

The implication is that the real culprit is not you, so don't blame yourself too much.

"I don't compare myself to other people, I just be myself..."

Mizukawao seemed to be calm.

Of course, if you follow An's statement, it is to shirk responsibility.

"Other people are like this, why can't I do this?", "Others are obviously at fault, why do I have to bear the burden?" These excuses are all reasons people make to shirk their responsibilities.

"tail……"

Yami seemed to want to comfort his master, but was unable to do so.

"Don't worry... I'm not sad... and I don't blame myself..."

Yes, sadness and self-blame are both in the past tense, and they were vented out as early as when he beat the Wraith.

Mizukawao couldn't tell what his mood was now. He just felt very peaceful, terrifyingly peaceful.

Like an avenger, he raised his sword in anger to fight back and kill his enemy.

However, after killing the enemy, he suddenly lost all purpose...

Only emptiness and loneliness remain...

"One Hundred Years of Solitude" has this passage:
"No matter where you go, you should remember that the past is false. Memories are a road with no return. In the final analysis, they are just fleeting reality. Only loneliness is eternal..."

This sentence is not just saying, don't recall the past too much.

I want to tell you that in any period of life, you must have a lonely heart.

For even the present is but the past in the eyes of the future.

No matter how "fighting against each other", in the end, they still end up alone.

There's no point in getting hung up on it.

Should you blame yourself for hurting someone because of your own fault?

You know, doing nothing is also a practice.

Knowing that someone was bound to be hurt, but doing nothing to stop it.

Is it wrong for those who don’t stop?Should I blame myself?

Even through no fault of his own——

Do you have to be responsible if you let innocent people get hurt by letting things go?
Heaven and earth naturally have their own principles. You can’t force it, and you can’t force it...

The truth that people strive for may just be untruth...

However, self-blame is an emotional behavior, and entanglement is a conflict between sensibility and rationality.

Perhaps, no one can do it without entanglement and without self-blame...

"I understand the truth...but...so what if I understand..."

He was not asking about An An standing on his right shoulder, nor about Hei who was crawling in his arms, nor was he asking anyone, just simply explaining.

Mizukawa raised his head and looked at the place where the soul flew to the sky before.

'…………'

(End of this chapter)