Guard members who stay in Konoha

Chapter 176, Chapter 68
After meeting Tsunade in the tent, she is now wearing a ninja combat uniform that is easy to move, which is a little different from the way she used to live at home, and her brows are more heroic.

"Long time no see, Dan, I didn't have time to talk to you before, you should be wondering what I want from you?" Tsunade said.

Tan nodded slightly. He really didn't know why Tsunade wanted to find him. Although they had met once, they were not particularly familiar with each other, and he didn't know if there was anything Tsunade needed to talk to him about.

"It's not a major military matter, it can be regarded as some personal affairs of mine." Tsunade lowered his head slightly, as if hesitating for a moment, and then asked, "I haven't seen you for so long, I don't know how you are doing now?"

What Tsunade asked was naturally about his "sickness", and he realized it immediately, and replied: "Yes, Mr. Tsunade, as you said, as time goes by, my current condition The situation has improved a lot, thank you Tsunade-sama for your concern."

"Really..." In the bottom of Tsunade's heart, he felt that the situation he explained should be the same as his own, but now that others have improved, but he is still the same, he can't help but worry about gains and losses.

After that meeting, Tsunade collected a lot of information on related symptoms and studied them carefully. Although mental illness and the mental sequelae caused by illusions are ambiguous concepts in this world, capable medical practitioners Ninjas can basically perceive something different.

After reviewing the data for many times, Tsunade has been able to confirm that this illness is definitely not caused by the mental sequelae caused by illusions, even though many of those people have records of being tortured by illusions in wars, it can be combined She still came to this conclusion after considering the situation of other people.

However, there must be something in common with the illnesses caused by illusions, that is, problems that appear on the spiritual level. Human consciousness is a very wonderful thing. Even if there is an illusion system that can affect the spirit, if people have real Tsunade himself couldn't explain what awareness was.

Tsunade's fear of blood is naturally due to such factors. This should be the impact of the death of her brother and lover on herself. The nightmare that has been tormenting Tsunade can prove this.

But how to cure this situation, Tsunade still hasn't come to a conclusion, and she felt that her illness didn't get any better during the previous battle.

Tsunade involuntarily raised her hands and clasped them together in front of her face, slightly covering her face. She pondered for a moment and said, "Can I ask? Now, why did you get better? What did you do?" Is it? Or is it really just the passage of time?"

"I don't understand the specific reason." Looking at Tsunade's appearance, his eyes narrowed slightly, and he said, "Master Tsunade, I can briefly explain my thoughts."

"You say it."

"Master Tsunade, you should know that I was in this situation because of the death of my teacher, Sakumo Hatake."

"Well, I still remember."

"At that time, Teacher Shuo Mao made a serious mistake, so that he chose to perform a secret mission to make up for his mistakes. And I think he is deliberately seeking death, just using this way to cover up. This kind of thinking makes me always I am confused, why did he choose such a path, there are other ways to make up for it, or he did not complete the task well, why did he sacrifice his life like this?"

When Tsunade heard this, she pursed her lips slightly. When she began to describe her thoughts, she began to think of her past, the time she spent with her younger brother Nawaki and her lover Kato.

Naoki is a gifted child. She regarded Hokage as her dream since she was a child, and worked very hard for it. When she entered the battlefield, even though she was a ninja, she often rushed to the front of the battlefield. I once criticized her for not being able to fight. It should be like this, but Shengshu didn't care.

Shortly after he gave the necklace left by his grandfather Hashirama, Nakoki was killed on the battlefield. Orochimaru told him that he was so happy to receive the gift that he rashly chased the enemy on the battlefield and stepped into the enemy's trap.

She felt it was her fault at that time, if it wasn't because she gave him the necklace left by her grandfather to encourage his dreams, if it wasn't because she failed to correct him as a ninja but rushing to the forefront of the battlefield. Get used to it—later she felt that it was because of Naoki’s pursuit of Hokage, she had a strong desire to express herself—then Naoki would not end up like this.

At that time, she could still comfort herself with the absence of medical ninjas around Naoki, but in the incident with Kato Duan, she couldn't even find such comfort.

Kato Dan, like Nawaki, is also an outstanding young man who aims at Hokage. Compared with his two fellow students, Kato Dan has no such and such problems, which is very in line with the girl's fantasy, and he has come forward to support his proposal for medical ninjas. Pairs come together conveniently.

And Kato Dan, who has the dream of Hokage, also takes the lead on the battlefield, because he knows very well that Hokage is the leader recognized by everyone, and it is impossible to get the position of Hokage without a convincing record. Everything needs to be convincing.

But in that tragic war, even a master like Kato Dan, if he was not careful, his life would be in danger, and he, the most powerful medical ninja in Konoha Ninja Village, could not be saved even though he was beside him. his life.

On the one hand, this incident hit Tsunade's self-confidence as a medical ninja, and also lost the excuses he could find when Nawaki died. Furthermore, the cause of Kato's death was to some extent the same as that of his younger brother. It was all caused by rushing to the front of the battlefield for Hokage's dream.

This made Tsunade gradually feel that the title of Hokage is actually a curse. Those who pursued the title of Hokage paid the price of their lives for it; Blocking the Uchiha Madara who attacked Konoha Ninja Village, he squeezed out the strength of his body, and his body, which had a strong vitality, was also going to the point where it was exhausted, and the second grandfather Toikama was in the process of forming an alliance with Yunyin Ninja Village , Encountered the opponent's ninja rebellion, in order to cover Konoha's younger generation, the heirs he had carefully cultivated, died of serious injuries after being broken.

And the third generation of Hokage who is still alive, that is to say her teacher Sarutobi Hiruza, often forgets to eat and sleep in the process of governing the village and dealing with other countries, and often encounters many difficulties. Things can't be left to one's own will like ordinary people, ordinary people can do this, but Hokage can't, because he has too many worries.

Just like during the Second Ninja World War, Tsunade proposed to arrange medical ninjas in each team. Hiruza Sarutobi recognized that this method is correct, otherwise he would not support Tsunade to establish a medical department in the future. However, due to limited funds and manpower at the time, he did not agree immediately, until he got new financial support and freed up manpower before he let Tsunade start this matter
Tsunade could understand the reason Sarutobi Hiruzen did this. There was not enough funds and manpower, so it really couldn't be done.But at that time, she lost her own brother because there was no medical ninja by her side—although she felt that even if there was a medical ninja, she might not be able to come back because of the Katou incident later—so she felt more or less for the teacher. Resentful, she was often ashamed of such a thought in retrospect.

It was correct that Sarutobi Hiruzen did not immediately agree. With limited resources, investing in medical ninjas would be very troublesome once it affected the battle. No matter how medical ninjas can save people's lives, they cannot be used as a frontal war. The needs of the enemy; and it is also understandable for Tsunade to make such a suggestion in order to prevent the tragedy of the rope tree from reappearing, and to feel resentful because Sarutobi Hiruzen did not agree.

And when the title of Hokage began to be questioned, Hiruza Sarutobi's performance provided Tsunade with a basis-look, just because Hiruza Sarutobi became Hokage, he began to worry about this and that. The medical ninja incident is One, there are other things as well. For example, the roots led by the teacher’s fellow student Danzo, obviously have such hidden dangers, why the teacher still allows them to exist?
Even if the intelligence personnel trained by the other party brought many important situations to the village, recovered many losses, and won a lot of benefits, isn't the danger already there?Just because the teacher is Hokage, for the sake of the village, even if there is such a hidden danger in the root, he still allows it to exist. Even if the other party's root will really bring danger in the future, he must let it exist at this moment.

When Tsunade was young, she still had a lot of resentment, but now she is also a mature woman in her thirties, she is no longer a naive child, she has been involved in many high-level affairs, and gradually understands Sarutobi Hiruzawa's suffering.Although Sarutobi Hiruzen did some things that made Tsunade very dissatisfied, but as the Hokage of Konoha Ninja Village, he is still a competent Hokage, and he has lived up to the expectations of the previous generations of Hokage.

However, because of this, Tsunade feels more and more unhappy about the position of Hokage. When she was young, she also expected Hokage. When she was an adult, when she made fun of Naoki's dream, she didn't have such fantasies in her heart. Now She had long since given up on the idea.

In the current "Konoha Sannin", only Orochimaru is still insisting on this idea. Tsunade has given up, and Jiraiya also has no thoughts on this aspect. When chatting with Jiraiya, she just felt it.

Because the view of Hokage has become like this, Tsunade feels that it is not worthwhile for Nawaki and Kato to sacrifice their lives for chasing Hokage.

Tsunade's expression was a little dazed. When she came back to her senses, she saw her looking at herself quietly and asked, "Master Tsunade, what are you thinking?"

"No, no, it's nothing." Tsunade said quickly. Of course, she would not talk about her thoughts in front of a junior, because it would affect her face as an elder. Besides, she was unwilling to talk about it. "I was in a daze just now, I'm really sorry, now, did I miss something just now?"

"No, I just talked for a while. I think Tsunade-sama should have listened to it at that time, because Tsunade-sama was lost in thought after that." Tan said.

"Yes, is it?" Tsunade breathed a sigh of relief, if the other party was talking, but she was obsessed with ignoring it, even if the other party was a junior, she would feel embarrassed.

"Seeing Tsunade-sama's appearance just now, I can't help but wonder, are you also confused by something, Tsunade-sama? Just like me." Dan stared into Tsunade's eyes and said.

Tsunade's heart couldn't help "jumping". Obviously the other party was just a teenager, but at this moment she felt that the other party's eyes looked like a person of her own age, and even a more mature person. This contrast made her feel puzzled.

"That's not the case! Now, you can continue to talk about your thoughts." Tsunade's voice was slightly higher, and she immediately realized that this was not self-inflicted, and she couldn't help but feel a little annoyed.

"I understand." She didn't ask further, this kind of moderation made Tsunade feel a little appreciation in her heart, and this attitude made her very satisfied.

"Then I will continue. As I said just now, I was angry at the beginning because Mr. Shuo Mao chose to do this, but then I thought about it, did Mr. Shuo Mao really perform such a task in order to seek death? Wouldn’t it be an insult to Master Shuo Mao to use such thoughts to speculate on Teacher Shuo Mao? Did Teacher Shuo Mao really die for such a reason?”

Tsunade was slightly taken aback, with a thoughtful expression on his face.

"After thinking of this, I began to think about some words that Mr. Shuo Mao said in the past. At that time, Mr. Shuo Mao did say some things that I couldn't understand at that time. Later, I realized some of Mr. Shuo Mao's sincerity. I just now Gradually, I realized that Mr. Shuo Mao did not perform the task for the pursuit of death, but because of his persistent and persistent belief! Mr. Shuo Mao fought for his own belief, and death was just an unfortunate accident , he must have seriously wanted to recover the losses for the village, rather than intentionally committing suicide. After I figured out that Teacher Shuo Mao didn’t intentionally seek death, my heart felt as at ease as if the blood that had been stagnant for a long time was completely unblocked.”

As for the description of that feeling, Tsunade, as a medical ninja, understands it very well.And she also understands the reason for her improvement, because at the beginning she thought that Sakumo Hatake committed suicide on purpose, and the mission was just to cover up. , He realized that Hatake Sakumo did not die for such a reason, but died unfortunately during the execution of the mission. After he realized that Hatake Sakumo was not that kind of person, the situation began to improve.

Although Tsunade knew the real cause of Hatake Sakumo's death, she would not say it at the moment, so as not to affect the other party. Of course, she didn't know that it would be okay to say it.

Although the real cause of Sakumo Hatake's death was suicide, after reading Sakumo Hatake's letter, he felt that Sakumo Hatake's death was not cowardice, but an unyielding struggle.After understanding this, his resentment also began to slowly disappear, even if he still felt sorry for Hatake Sakumo's choice of such a path, because he felt that Hatake Sakumo should be able to fight with him and slowly change the world Yes, but after all, she doesn't complain about others, so these words are not completely false, and there is also truth in them.

And he whitewashed what Tsunade said to a certain extent, but what he was targeting was not the matter of Hatake Sakumo, but the other two people, and he felt that Tsunade should be able to understand.

Tsunade was indeed thinking slowly at this time, and then it was because of a misunderstanding of Hatake Sakumo's intentions, so what was his own reason?During the period when she was just fascinated, she was also analyzing her own mental journey, so did she figure out something in it?
"I understand. You go first, you have other things to do." Tsunade said after being silent for a while.

(End of this chapter)