Guard members who stay in Konoha

Chapter 114 Six, Heart Disease and... Kaleidoscope
"To my students:
Maybe before you read this letter, you have heard the news that I am no longer in this world, and you are angry, confused, and incomprehensible about it.Regardless of whether you already know about it or not, I would like to say sorry to you first, I have failed your expectations.

I am very glad that you can understand my thoughts. Even if I have caused such serious consequences, you are willing to run for me and intercede for me. I hope you can express my gratitude to other intercessors on my behalf.However, I also feel very guilty because I can't repay your efforts.

I really can't go on anymore, but you must not feel that you are not doing well enough. You have already done a good job in this matter, but the pain in my heart is not only about this matter.

As early as a long time ago, I have already felt the inner fatigue. To be honest, I really don’t know how I got through these years.If you want to know the reason, I am willing to tell you, because you are a person worthy of entrustment, but if you don't want to know, then you don't need to read the following experiences.

I was born in a samurai family. Later, because of the decline of my family and the rise of Konoha Ninja Village, my father took me into Konoha Ninja Village and devoted myself to the ninja tradition.At that time, I admired the first generation of Hokage very much. Although the Konoha ninja village established by the first generation of Hokage caused an impact on the samurai class and led to the decline of my family, I think that the first generation of Hokage is still worthy of my respect. should learn.

Maybe it was from then on that I had a kind of pursuit of beautiful ideals in my heart, and then I devoted myself to learning the family's sword skills and ninja fighting methods, and fused them together to gradually become stronger.

In this process, in addition to fighting methods, I also learned the traditional concepts of ninjas, because I was born as a samurai, and I understand both concepts very well. contradictions or certain problems.

But because I didn't have much experience, I couldn't understand this point until about ten years later, the second ninja war began.It was an unjust war.Unlike the first generation of Naruto, which is the great goal of ending the ninja family disputes and ending the chaotic times of the Warring States Period, it is purely a war caused by the uneven distribution of spoils among the five major powers.

Not only the five major countries, but also many small countries have been implicated, such as the country of rain.It is caught in the gap between the big countries, and because of its strategic position, it has been infiltrated and oppressed by countries including the Fire Nation, so much so that after Hanzo, the leader of the Ninja Village of Ugakure, rebelled, he was considered treasonous and moved the battlefield over there.

As a Konoha ninja, I was ordered to go to the battlefield to meet the enemy, but whenever I faced the ninjas in the Land of Rain who had to fight back because of the invasion of a big country, I would feel the pain in my heart; even those from the Land of Wind and the Land of Earth Those ninjas I have come to understand, I gradually realized that we are just our own masters, and because of the unequal distribution of benefits, we threw ourselves into this war to kill each other.

Later, I was called "Konoha White Fang" by everyone because of my numerous military exploits. Behind this glorious title, I was stained with the blood of countless people. With people who are forced to fight back like the Ninja of the Rain Country, it's hard for me to convince myself that the death of these people is justified and deserved.

After all, I am a ninja of Konoha Ninja Village, and I have indeed protected the village and country where I live. But thinking about the causes of these disputes, I am more and more confused about what I have done.That is, from this time on, I gradually realized the problems in those ninja traditions, and gradually developed other emotions.

However, I just can't convince other people, because other people take it for granted, and I can't find any reason to tell them that it is wrong to do this, and they also have their own "rightness".

After thinking about it again and again, I always kept it in my heart and didn't tell others.

And then, another major blow came.That's Kakashi's mother. I don't want to say more about what I know about his mother, but I will briefly talk about it.I love her deeply, she is a beautiful light in my heart, an existence worth fighting for.

But because of her marriage to me, she was forced to accept the traditional rules of her birth family and gave a lot of things. As a result, her body fell to the root of the disease and passed away after leaving Kakashi.

I hated her cruel family tradition, hated myself for not being able to protect her, and hated what they took for granted.But as I said before, I can't find any way to reprimand them and tell them that this is not right, they will only feel that such a tradition is where the glory lies.

Coupled with the need to take care of the young Kakashi, I finally chose to calm down.

In the time since then, I have been thinking about how to do it, and I have done some things to practice my ideals, hoping to start with small things and slowly change this ninja world.But sure enough, I was still a little naive. Some of the problems I encountered were damaging my body and mind. I have always relied on my own strength to turn the tide, and when I couldn't save the situation, that was the result.

My physical and mental state was barely maintained, but now after this kind of thing happened, it completely collapsed, really, completely.Even if you and others have done so much for me, it may be possible to save the situation by doing crime and doing meritorious service, but I really don't want to go any further.

Because I am afraid, I am afraid that after that, I will gradually give up my ideals and integrate into this ninja world. I can already feel the signs of this, and I can no longer run through it.

Rather than being alive at that time, but no longer being the past self, it is better to maintain the present self and just die like this.

Maybe you think this is a sign of weakness, and I don't deny it, because I really chose to give up selfishly.

Now, I hope you can learn from me and don't learn from me, a useless guy.You also have ideals, and in my opinion, you are much stronger than me, you must be able to unswervingly follow your own path, not the same as a weak guy like me.

You are a very talented person and a unique Uchiha. If things go well in the future, you may be able to change your family. If you can change it, you may be able to change the ninja world as well.

Although you were studying with me before, I didn't officially accept you as my student. Now I want to tell you that you are my apprentice. It's a pity that I can't teach you personally, but you can sign a contract with the starling, I leave some things over there and it will give it to you.

Finally, I hope you can take care of Kakashi. Although he can take care of himself now, he is indeed too young, and there may be some problems.

the above,

Your useless teacher, Sakumo Hatake. "

After reading the letter tremblingly, Dan felt extremely angry. Why did he seek death like this?Obviously there is room for maneuver, but does this failure mean that there will be future failures?As long as a person is alive, no matter what, he still has hope to pursue, but if he dies, he will really get nothing.

After calming down for a while, I suddenly realized that it was not incomprehensible for Sakumo Hatake to act like this, because according to Sakumo Hatake's letter, his physical and mental state was already riddled with holes. "Ye Baiya" actually accumulated so much psychological pressure in his heart?

In his previous life, Dan also heard that some people looked very normal, but in fact they might have serious mental illnesses, and no one around them could notice until they did something irreversible.

Hatake Sakumo may be such an example, because Hatake Sakumo didn't tell others, and other people would naturally not know his inner pain and entanglement, let alone seek a cure-in fact, in this era Here, there is no method of psychological treatment at all, and the ninjas survive on their own, which is also part of the so-called "forbearance" practice.

However, for Hatake Sakumo, this is exactly the ninja tradition that he cannot identify with.

However, understanding is understanding, and acceptance is another matter. As expected, he still couldn't just accept it like this. Hatake Sakumo chose to give up just like that, and walked to death quietly.

Why don't you want to tell him?Would you like to talk to him?Even if he is not a professional psychiatrist, he will look for other methods.

Even if he knew that a patient like Sakumo Hatake would probably not tell others, he still couldn't help but think so.

He resented both Sakumo Hatake's choice and his own uselessness. He didn't notice Sakumo Hatake's abnormality. For him, people like Sakumo Hatake had similar ideas. They are people who are easy to talk about. They are similar in mental age. He actually regards Hatake Sakumo as his good friend.

But now, Hatake Sakumo left this world just like that, and he couldn't bring it back, intense pain and sorrow swept his spirit.

It seems that this body is in pain, is it the residual thoughts of the original owner "Uchiha Dan"?Saddened by the death of my teacher.

The pain and sorrow seemed to turn into flames, burning blazingly in Dan's body, and then filled every place inside the body, among which the eyes burned so painfully that they felt like they were about to explode.

When he slowly came back to his senses, he only felt an invisible and qualityless force condensed in his eyes, and there was something incomprehensible in it.

In a trance, he instinctively realized what it was, and the realm above Sharingan——Kaleidoscopic Sharingan was opened.

(End of this chapter)