The Worst Nova of Pirates

Chapter 64
what is selfNow?past?future?
The current self is what I like, and I control my own life and destiny. Even if I die, I will die in pursuit.

The past self was hated by others, like a fool, at the mercy of others.In the future, who can tell?

Wayward, he doesn't want to recall the past, and the past is also a part of his life, Lin Li should face it.

When Lin Li found Suleimano and said that he asked to enter the dreamland, even Suleimano was taken aback. After all, it was not a good dream that he made under the power of his fear.

Some people can't grow up all their lives, and some people become enlightened after experiencing one incident.

Lin Li knew this, and wanted to see if he was a dragon or a worm, whether he was sinking like that maid, or if he bravely broke through his fear and greeted him.

The nightmare has begun.

It was autumn, the season when fallen leaves were flying, and the cold wind was blowing. I stepped on the fallen leaves and returned home. I didn't come back for half a month. There was a musty smell in the house.

After graduating from school, I couldn't live in the orphanage. When I grow up, I need to make a living independently. As long as I can remember, I have been stronger than anyone else.

When I was very young, as far as I can remember, I grew up in an orphanage without parents or family.

Friends always come and go in a hurry, but I never leave.

The dean said that school will start and he wants to send me to school, but I haven't even been to kindergarten, and I don't know pinyin and Chinese characters. I'm stupid, and the teachers don't like me.

But I was stronger than anyone else. One year later, I was No.1 in grade every time, but no one came to praise me, and my classmates hated me even more. I didn’t have my own room, and there was no place to put my certificates.

When I was in middle school, I saw a comic at the same table. It was very passionate, and I had a group of trustworthy companions, chasing my dreams. I believed that one day, I would be able to succeed, and I would also have a home.

The nine-year compulsory education is over, and my grades can go to high school, but the orphanage can't bear the cost of my schooling. They drove me away, because I am an adult, and I can be stronger than anyone else.

The 21st century is the age of the Internet. I went from being a small worker in a workshop to a clerical job. Although the salary is not as good as that in the workshop, it is not so hard.

The manager said that she has a niece who is studying art in college. The parents of rural children hope that she will get married early and try to have a relationship during college and get married after graduation.

Like me, my family is poor, and my parents hope to find an honest man. The manager said that she thought of me first, because I am honest, I have no parents, and I will not be angry when I marry.

That winter, she stood in the snow, she was waiting for me, as if she was my future.

We fell in love, and according to her parents, I wanted to get married after she graduated. We held hands and walked through the ups and downs of this year.

Later, she told me that after she graduated, she didn't want to stay in the poor soil of her hometown, and she yearned for prosperity.

She's gone, spending all my money, all my attachments.

My job was gone, my manager fired me, they said I was stupid because I was supporting a girl for two years of schooling.

I know I'm doing wrong, but I'm stronger than anyone else.

I used all my savings from leaving my job to come to Shenzhen and wanted to create my own piece of sky, but the sky was still out of reach. No matter how hard I tried, no matter how hard I worked, I could never get the approval of others.

They bullied me, laughed at me, satirized me.

Why do I have no parents?

Why do I have no house?

Why do girls not like me?
They have everything.

Why?They all have it!

I don't like this world anymore, it's always bullying me, but I have to work hard and earn a small salary.

The walls in the south are thinner than those in the north, because there is no ice and snow in the south, but there are things colder than ice and snow.

The young and Dangerous boy in the next room brought back another woman. How many girlfriends has he dated?I forgot.

The voices next door are annoying but make me yearn for it, I haven't done it but I know what they're doing and I'm starting to make myself hate them.

Why?I don't!
Why should I be so strong?

He's a bad guy and keeps getting, I work so hard and get nothing.

Recently, I have become more and more unwilling to go home. When I was sick and went to the hospital, they said I was mentally ill, and you are the mentally ill. I just don’t like this world.

I haven't come back for half a month, and there is a musty smell in the room.Tidy up the room, turn on the mobile phone to watch anime, I have been chasing for more than ten years, the only comfort in my heart.

I started to go to work again. A beautiful new colleague came to the office. She looked at me with blinking eyes. There was a tear in the corner of her clothes. I was the only one with needles and threads in the whole office. I helped her sew it up.

She was very happy, and handed me her own water glass, drinking the water in the glass, as if my lips touched hers, the water was very sweet, so sweet that my mouth was salivating.

This is the first time I want to fight for others for myself, and I like her.

She is a little girl who can't do anything well, and always likes me to help her. Every time I can't bear to refuse, I stay up late to finish her work.

I seem to be so stupid, I always help her subconsciously, but she doesn't like me, so she refuses to date me, leaving me alone to work overtime until dawn.

She is using me, I know, but I just don't want to believe it.

They seem to be right, I seem to be really mentally ill, I can feel that I am gradually unable to suppress my emotions, and want to destroy everything.

I confessed my love to her, but I was laughed at badly. I won't lose face anymore, starting from today.

The National Day holiday started, but I had to work overtime for the manager, and he took her and left.Seven days off, they went for seven days, and I have to work overtime for seven days.

The anime has been refreshed, it's very good-looking, it would be great if you were born in the world of One Piece, you can do whatever you want, everything is determined by power, you don't have to be sulking, even if you die, you don't have any regrets.

Perhaps, people's dreams can only be realized in illusion.

The front of the eyes suddenly became psychedelic, the space and time were distorted, through the fog, and the front could not be seen clearly.

I am tired of seeing the same reincarnation over and over again in the dream.

I don't want to live for others anymore, even if no one recognizes me, I want to break everything, I believe in my strength.

At this point, Lin Li's eyes flashed fiercely, full of wisdom and madness, and then he returned to calm, with the ferocity buried in his heart, just like a demon king staring at the world.

In the dream, I don't know that I am a guest, and the cold wind and autumn dreams gather and disperse.

In the past, I accepted you and didn't hate you anymore. It was you who made me grow up. It's time to wake up from my dream.

Tears ran down my cheeks, and I woke up from my dream.

"Oh my God! You finally woke up. Do you know that you have been sleeping for three days and three nights. No matter how I call you, you won't wake up. The doctor can't do anything, and the power of fear can't be regained." Lin Ligang woke up I heard Suleimano chattering in my ear.

The body is very weak, but the consciousness is very clear. I don't know if it is an illusion, but Lin Li seems to be able to feel the flow of blood in his body, and his whole body is ethereal.

Through looking at the ceiling, Lin Li can feel the outside world, which is very big, and the perception range of knowledge-colored domineering has expanded to 50 meters, and the perception is more clear.Unexpectedly, the armed-colored domineering has not yet achieved results, but the knowledge-colored domineering has advanced by leaps and bounds, entering the second stage.

Instead of sitting on a lotus flower to realize the Dharma and life, I would rather realize it in a pool of blood.

(End of this chapter)