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Chapter 1093 Inter-chapter Fujino Eternal companion
I am a person without happiness, because I don't know what happiness is?
Asakami Fujino thought so until he was 12 years old.

This is a very ridiculous thing in the eyes of outsiders.

The Qiangami family is a well-known family in Nagano. Being able to have this surname is a kind of happiness in itself. Being born in such a family means that her starting point is naturally much higher than that of ordinary people.Isn't this moaning without illness?

The reality is quite the opposite.

Moaning without illness is hypocritical, and moaning with illness is a matter of course.

Fujino is sick, "painless".Can't feel pain, don't know what pain is.Without this kind of comparison, we don't know the corresponding happiness and joy.

Ever since she accidentally cut her hand with a knife when she was a child, but she didn't feel it, she has become such an outlier.

She didn't know why the people around her were afraid, there was obviously nothing to be afraid of.

She didn't know why they laughed, they were obviously not happy at all.

Don't cry or laugh, don't be happy or sad.

Without these two most vivid and important emotions in life, other emotions also become very weak.

Dolls.

Cold beauty.

She heard people say that about her more than once, but she didn't feel it at all.

To be precise, she has never had a real sense of her own existence.

To sleep is to complete a task, to wake up is to complete a task, to go to school is to complete a task, to do homework is to complete a task, and even to be alive is to complete a task, just like a walking dead.

I won't be surprised when I die, maybe I can be freed at that time.

Fujino thought so, more than once.

If you have no real sense of life, you will naturally have no fear of death.

Even if the famous family was on the verge of bankruptcy and was forced to come to the door by the separation of the family and asked her mother to remarry, she didn't feel anything about changing her surname.

Isn't it just to complete the task?The task is completed in Nagano, and the task is also completed in Guanfuzi City. Is there any difference?

Looking back now, I still have lingering fears.

If you just die like this, you will never meet that person in your life, and you will never understand what happiness is.

Yes, at the moment when her fate was about to go to the abyss, before her fragile sensibility was worn out by time, she met a man, a man who changed her life and destiny——Matou Shinji was still a child under ten years old at the time.

This magical child met her at a drinking party.Obviously it was the first time they met, but she saw through the truth that she was trying to hide-the "painless disease" that her father did not allow her to expose in front of outsiders.

Obviously there was no intersection before, but it made me understand what pain is for the first time.

It was him who helped him regain his sense of pain.

It was him who made himself feel joy.

It was him who took back all the feelings for himself.

He is the second person to admit that he is human, the first being his mother, and the only person in the family who does not call himself a monster.

He said that since he didn't feel that family, he might as well follow me.

He said, you are unique in this world.

He said, I want your strength.

He said, be my family.

This is the first time I've been needed.

This is the first time I understand the difference in weight between "family" and other people.

There is nothing to hesitate, and nothing to miss.Since he can give himself pain/pleasure, since he needs himself, he should go to her side.

A wonderful reason, but it is the purest idea.

A hasty decision, but the most sincere hope.

Even if there is hell in front of her, she will not hesitate at all - it is much better to feel hell than not to feel it at all.Even if you have to regret it, it will be in the future.

With such emotions in mind, she followed the man she had only met a few times, to a strange city and a strange house.

But there were two things she was wrong about, and they were very wrong.

First of all, what awaits her is not hell, but heaven.

Nobody here calls her a monster, everyone treats her very well.

His father, He, would always ask if there was anything wrong with him, and his younger sister would help him with all kinds of chores.

And the one who cared the most, he thoroughly implemented his declaration, that is, "needs", led himself to run around, and even found a teacher for himself to better learn to control his own power.

"Grow up quickly, and you will become our trump card." He said this to her the day after he formally became a teacher.

At that moment she cried, laughed and shed tears.

If this is a dream, she hopes that she will never wake up for the rest of her life.

If this is not a dream, then she will do everything in her power to protect this "happiness".

That's right, this is the taste of "happiness", and she tasted it for the first time in her life.

No matter how empty it was in the past, how strong is the sense of reality at this moment, so strong that it easily overwhelms all her past lives.

Sound ridiculous?

However, if you haven't experienced the kind of life where you don't feel real no matter what you do or how you do it, you will never understand the preciousness of your senses.

The girl's heart fell easily.

Every word he said, she remembered in her heart.

Everything he wants him to do, she will try her best to do well.

He wanted her to grow up quickly, so she frantically took knowledge from her teacher.

He asked her to transfer to Liyuan Girls' Academy, and she went to school there.

He said that girls should cherish themselves more, so she dressed herself up beautifully every day.

He said that your mother loves you, go and see her more, so she will accompany her mother every weekend.

He said to be healthy and happy, this does not require hard work.

Because I have always been happy, even if I encounter pain, it is worth being happy.

passive?No idea?
Fujino will not deny it, because she is such a person.But there is nothing wrong with this. Who said that it must be bad if you don’t have your own opinions?Don't you have a good time?
Of course, there are still wishes, which were made on the day of the fall, and gradually increased with age——

12 years old - listen to him and be his assistant.

15 years old - always by his side, no matter what his identity is.

——If one day I lose all my memory, I will also remember his name.

20 years old - give him a pair of lovely children, the daughter should be more beautiful than himself, and the son should be like him.

22 years old - If the Holy Grail can really grant wishes, please listen to my heart and let his wishes come true.

She never said these words to him, and kept silently hiding them all the time.

But she will use her own actions to do it, five years, ten years, 20 years or even a lifetime.

Just like the woman she admires the most, Elsa Matou's philosophy of life.

Companionship is the longest confession of love. Even if everyone in the world leaves you, I will stay by your side.

Always by your side.

PS: Distributing dog food is addictive, keep sending it.

PS2: To make a little digression, in Xingyue’s debut character, Rai Shao divided it into three layers of the pyramid, but now the residents on the fourth layer appear, the XX in the swimsuit activity, that is, the appearance of X after the hair grows, and X The setting of Mao BX is rather ambiguous.This one has clearly stated the combat power - star burst, full output can blow up the star.And at the end of the setting, it was clearly stated that if she comes to the earth again, and the problems on the earth (the alien gods have washed the earth) have not been resolved, she will solve it by herself—in other words, our XX Altoli Ms. Ya didn't pay attention to the Alien Star God at all, and the Alien Star God's personality was greatly weakened.

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