Inuyasha: I am the villain

Chapter 117 Conversation with Cuizi
"Live well." Cuizi smiled softly at me standing on the green hillside.

"Cuizi!" I rushed over to hug her, "It's great that you're fine."

She also hugged me, "You haven't hugged me like this since three years ago."

"I'm sorry..." Because I wanted to grow up by myself, I ignored the people around me.I understand now that growing up doesn't necessarily mean alienating others, even if you get bored. "From now on, I will hug you every day, one in the morning, one in the afternoon, and one in the evening."

Cuizi smiled, "Then I can't bear it."

I hugged her tightly and didn't want to ask or leave, as if if I let go of it, everything would become a phantom.

Cuizi put her hand on my back and asked, "Why aren't you talking?"

I shook my head, no, there was nothing, but the feeling in the stalactite cave was too real, I didn't want to find out where Cuizi's injury was, and I didn't want to analyze why she and I appeared here.That's all.

"Let go of me first, please?"

No, no, no.

"Then let's sit down first. It's been a long time since we had such a quiet chat."

Cuizi pulled me to sit down, she looked at the scenery below, and I looked at her.

"Why are you staring at me like that?"

"It's nothing..." I turned my head and stared at the grass at my feet before telling the truth, "I'm afraid you will disappear."

"No, I will always be by your side."

Liar, I put my head on my knees, is a lie.

Cuizi stroked my back repeatedly, and I couldn't help but say, "I'm not mica."

"I see you touch the mica like this every time you go home, thinking you like it."

I like to masturbate cats but I don't like being masturbated.

Cuizi let go of her hand, and we were silent for a while before she said, "Since you know it in your heart, don't run away. I can accept this ending."

Hearing her words, I felt my heart stop suddenly for two seconds, and then speed up, hitting my chest with pain.

"What escape, what ending, what nonsense are you talking about." I held her hand and said, "The weather is so nice today, let's talk about something else."

My anxiety was passed on to her, and I didn't want her to talk any more.

Cuizi didn't follow me and said directly, "The ending of dying in the stalactite cave."

When I heard the word death, I shook off her hand and stood up, not wanting to hear it anymore.

"Rain, really, I can accept it."

"You can and I can't!" I yelled at her, "Why are you so calm?! Why did you give up your life? To save me?"

I pointed to myself, "Where do I need your help? I don't want your help! I can still live without this body!"

"rain……"

Cuizi wanted to hold my hand, I moved away and turned my back to her, wiped the snot that came out before the tears with my hand, choked my throat and said, "You made your own decision without consulting us, and you dragged me to this place." What are you doing in the fake world?"

Instead of forcing me to sit down, she continued:
"My ending is already doomed, but you are not. You are the only existence in this world who is not bound by fate. You must have a good future."

After listening to her words, I put down my hands on my face, "Did you already know?"

"what do you know?"

"Knowing that I will have this ending."

Cuizi asked back, "Didn't you already know that I knew about this?"

...yes, I know.There's no way not to know, Cuizi is so obvious, how could she not notice it.We are all pretending to be ignorant. I thought that if I lived a stupid life, I would be lucky to escape something, but what should happen still happened.She said that I am not bound by fate, but am I still in this circle?

I sat down in frustration, "What's the use of knowing, it can't change anything, it's better not to know."

Is the purpose of my coming here to experience the parting of life and death?In order for me to watch the people around me die one by one?What did I do to be so cruel to me?

"is useful."

Cuizi held my hand, I took a look and said, "I just wiped my nose, and there is still snot on it."

Cuizi choked, "Is now the time to talk about this? I don't despise you."

"It's not a matter of disgust, it's unhygienic." I took out my hand and wiped it on the clothes, then stuffed it back into her hand. "Go on."

"...Well." Cuizi reorganized her words after thinking about it for a while, "Even though my ending has not changed, I chose it myself. This is a big difference."

I got angry when I said this, and finally she pushed me out, and she died with the monsters.Obviously, if two people are together, there may be different results.

"I know what you're thinking, you've been working hard to change my fate, but..." Cuizi put her hand on her right shoulder, "I was seriously injured and poisoned by miasma, and I had already survived with a human body. It's gone."

I grieved in my heart, it was someone who hurt her.Since the two of them fight, only one of them must survive.

"People have seen him, is he dead?"

Cuizi lowered her eyes slightly and nodded.

"Don't feel sorry for us, since we decided to be together, we have been prepared for such a day. It is agreed that if he turns into a monster completely, then only I can end his life."

Because I knew the ending a long time ago and made all the preparations for that day, so when it really came, I didn't feel sad or sad.But what about me, what do I do? Is fate playing tricks on me?Hiding somewhere and laughing at my wasted effort?
"Cuizi."

"Ok?"

I covered my sore eyes with one hand and asked her, "If you had another chance to choose, would you still push me away?"

"Yes." Cuizi replied without hesitation, "Although I still have regrets, this is the most correct choice."

"But have you ever thought about me!" I covered my eyes with my hand, turned my head and said to her, "I thought that the purpose of my coming here was to save you! But after doing so much, it was useless!"

Regardless of the tears and snot running down my face, I continued to vent: "What will the village do without you, what will I do?! You only know how to show your kindness, have you considered our feelings! We also hope..."

The more I talk, the more I feel uncomfortable, mmp, I can't go on.

Cuizi wanted to comfort me several times, but she raised her hand and put it down again.Anyway, comfort is not good.

"Protecting you is not out of kindness but selfishness." Cuizi said so suddenly, I didn't understand what she meant.

"What do you mean?"

"Without your arrival, I might only have a name and a few stories. If you were not born in this era, but in Inuyasha's era, my life would not be as rich as it is now. So, Protecting you is like proving that you had such a happy time."

She is right. In the story of Inuyasha, she doesn't describe much, and she is not as clear-cut and flesh-and-blood as the protagonists.

However, "Are you satisfied with this? No matter what the story is, with different perspectives, the main content will focus on different characters. It's not that there are no simple characters, it's just that they haven't been written."

Cuizi smiled, "So, aren't you writing my content? I hope you can continue to write."

I'm not a god, I can't decide the direction of the plot, I'm just a pen being manipulated, I can write where I point.

"Cuizi, you are dead, how can I write?" Life is over, and the story is over.You are the protagonist of the story, without you, how can we continue?

"Didn't I say, I will always be by your side."

Here it comes again, "Why are you by my side? Is your soul following me? Stop lying to me." Even her soul is trapped in the jade of the four souls.

"If you were so easy to coax, I wouldn't have to bother."

"Well, you've been talking to me here for a long time, just to pave the way for what you're going to tell me next?"

Cuizi blinked in surprise, "... how do you know?"

"Because you're rambling on with me, making me feel nothing. There must be a purpose in talking."

"I didn't expect the real you to be so smart."

It's not smart, it's an occupational disease.

　Today is the birthday of a friend who has given me a lot of advice and has always supported me.There's nothing to give away, so let's explode another chapter. For someone like me who is slow to code, it's a gift.

　　When chatting, he said that life is very confusing, and he hopes that after this birthday, he can find his own direction and move forward bravely despite difficulties.

　　I also hope that all the viewers who are on the difficult road will arrive at the Kantan Avenue as soon as possible.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)