The secrets we missed in time

Chapter 166 Her Secret
"Yuan, why don't you leave when you come back this time? Great, do you know that Xiao Ang waited so hard for you! Auntie, please, don't leave him again, okay?" Bai Yurong muttered to herself with.

"Auntie, I..." Xu Yuan didn't know how to answer Bai Yurong's words for a while, but she couldn't refuse bluntly in the face of her earnest eyes, so she could only say in a dull voice: "Well, I won't leave this time."

Seeing Xu Yuan's embarrassment, Bai Ang frowned and said: "Mom, Yuan Yuan and I have something to talk about." And he winked, implying that his mother should not disturb them.With one hand, he picked up the vegetable bag on the ground and handed it to his mother, and with the other hand, he took Xu Yuan and walked towards the study.

"Okay, okay, Mommy is cooking, you go ahead." Bai Yurong said wittily, and carried the dishes into the kitchen happily.

In the study room, Bai Ang opened the safe on the bookcase, took out an ancient black leather notebook, solemnly handed it to Xu Yuan, and said, "This is it. At the beginning, she gave this notebook to me. , Said that if one day you misunderstood, I will give it to you. I never thought that there would be such a day, and my innocence would need a diary to prove. I thought, you would believe me. "

Seeing the desolate and self-deprecating expression on Bai Ang's face, Xu Yuan felt extremely guilty in her heart, knowing that she had always failed his affection and trust.

After receiving the diary, Xu Yuan sat nervously on the sofa in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and began to look through the old things about Wang Xinning...

There is such a line written on the title page: "Love doesn't know where it started, but it goes deeper and deeper."

Flipping back, Xu Yuan found that the entire diary was dark and depressing. It contained detailed records about her father's accidents, childhood experiences, mother's misunderstandings, and all kinds of things after suffering from depression, including the things she had already had. That suicide experience.

In the midst of large stretches of melancholy words, the appearance of Xu Yuan seemed to add a little color to her life.Because of her appearance, Wang Xinning got to know Wen Miao, Bai Ang, Jiang Chao, and the only heartbeat in her short life—Chi Mo.

Yes, she did not fall in love with Wen Lei who was as dazzling as a Venus star according to her mother's expectations, nor was she attracted to Wen Lei who took care of her like her father, and she did not go beyond the rules with her best friend's boyfriend Bai Ang.What she loves is Chi Mo, the owner of the billiard hall who is neither tall nor rich nor handsome.She doesn't know what she loves about him, she only knows that he always appears in obscurity when she needs it, just like the black clothes he usually wears, caring for her in a low-key and deep way.

Just like the words on the title page, "Love doesn't know where it started, it goes deeper and deeper", this is roughly the case for Wang Xinning's love for Chi Mo.

However, this love eventually overturned.

After Chi Mo and Wang Xinning had a taste of the forbidden fruit, he closed the billiard hall without a word and completely disappeared from the city. Even Bai Ang, his long-time friend, never received a word of farewell.When he left, he not only took away Wang Xinning's heart, but also took away her soul and an unformed life.

During that time, Wang Xinning was immersed in sad memories all day long, but her mother Zheng Lan put a lot of pressure on her to study, which made her depression worse and worse, and eventually committed suicide by jumping off the building.

Everyone said that Wang Xinning committed suicide because of Bai Ang, but no one knew that she became more depressed because of Chi Mo's refusal to say goodbye.Because she only had a little communication with Bai Ang on weekdays, rumors spread everywhere.And Bai Ang's "black pot" has been for several years.It was because of the relationship between Xu Yuan and Wang Xinning, and to make up for the mistakes made by his friend Chi Mo, that he took on the gossip about Wang Xinning.It was the only thing he could do at the time.However, these limited help are not enough to restore Wang Xinning's determination to die.

Xu Yuan turned to the last page of the diary. Wang Xinning's beautiful handwriting left the last imprint of her life on the somewhat yellowed paper. It was a lyrics.

"Crazy Absolutely"

I want to get you drunk with a glass of latte/so that you can love me more/what it feels like to be in love/you don’t understand this feeling/you’ll never have someone with you/see you and him in front of me/prove my love It's just ignorance/You don't understand my haggardness/It's an experience you'll never experience/You'll never understand the kind of sadness I paid for you/Why do I force myself to love everything about you/You forcefully push my defenses back /Quietly close the door and count my tears/Knowing that it is impossible to let you leave his world/I foolishly wait until the day when a miracle will appear/Until that day you will find/The person who truly loves you stays alone sad……

The past came to my mind, and all the memories about Wang Xinning buried Xu Yuan like an avalanche.She remembered that this was Wang Xinning's favorite song.At that time, when she, Xin Ning, and Wen Miao heard this song for the first time on the street, it was a cold Christmas Eve. Christmas carols were played everywhere in the street, but there was only one audio-visual store that heard the song. This sad and charming song came out.The three of them stopped together and stood by the side of the street listening for a long time.I don't remember who it was at the time, it seemed that I was crying...

It took a long time for Xu Yuan to withdraw from the memories.She looked at Bai Ang with tears in her eyes, trembling uncontrollably and said: "If I had known about these things earlier, if I had been by her side at that time, maybe she would not have died, right? It's all my fault, it's all my fault, I didn't at all After getting to know her seriously, I still suspect that she has betrayed me."

"No, how can this be your fault? Her death was not caused by one person, it was her life, and no one can blame it." Bai Ang sighed, and said: "If you have to blame it, it's the irresponsible person Chi Mo. If he hadn't abandoned Wang Xinning, she wouldn't have taken this path."

"Why did he treat Xinning like this? Even you don't know where he went?" Xu Yuan was also furious when Chi Mo was mentioned.

Bai Ang shook his head and said, "I don't know. If I knew, I would have picked him out and thrown him in front of Wang Xinning."

Xu Yuan fell into deep thought: "Could it be that Chi Mo is really a scumbag who starts messing around and ends up giving up? Could it be that all of us have misjudged him before? Including Bai Ang who has known him for many years. Could it be because he knows Did you leave because of Xinning's past?"

Seeing that Xu Yuan hadn't spoken for a while, Bai Ang came over and squatted in front of her, gently shook her shoulders, and said cautiously: "Little enemy, it's all over. Do you understand now? Wang Xinning and I are not what you want." I have never given up on you, you have always been in my heart, and you have never left for a moment. No matter where you go, I will wait for you to come back to me. In this life, you can only belong to me. "

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