The Queen of Romance: A Summer of Sweet Classics

Chapter 18
Nie Ranqing's heartbeat stopped for a moment.

She knew that he was not just talking, and Xi Jinnan's jokes would never go to this level.Nie Ranqing stood there, she opened her mouth, but it seemed as if someone had strangled her throat, unable to speak a word.

She still managed to make a sound, very hesitant, and dry, trying to hide her shock and disbelief, the two words seemed to take a lot of effort: "Divorce?"

"Did you never think that we would get a divorce?" He stubbed out his cigarette, and suddenly laughed, but it was more like a sarcasm, because the words behind him were full of thick sarcasm, "But you never seem to I thought about spending my whole life with me."

Xi Jinnan had never talked to her in this tone before, his voice sounded in the darkness, weak and helpless, as ethereal as a thread about to break.

"When I married you, I was determined to spend the rest of my life with you. But you used marriage as a weapon against Lu Pei. You stubbornly believed that only Lu Pei was your future. Nie Ranqing, the person you married It's me, but you're thinking about him. It doesn't matter if you think about him at that time, after all, we just broke up. Anyway, I think we still have a long time, and one day you will know what is the most important, You can definitely understand that this future road is for me to walk with you."

"But I didn't expect that in the past three years of marriage, you have never come out. Even if you can't forget him, you should give me some leeway after marriage. You have nightmares, and the name in your dreams is Lu Pei. You really let me Frustrated, I even wondered whether it was right or wrong for me to marry you. In this case, I said to myself in my heart, I have a limit of three years, and after three years of marriage, if you have not changed, we will divorce and I will let you go Leave. At that time, I was too confident, thinking that you will definitely look back when the time comes, and you will always understand that Lu Pei will not be everything to you in this world."

"But I seem to have overestimated you, or maybe I overestimated myself. When Lu Pei came back, you were even more silent. The answer you gave me at the birthday party was that you never let go. Nie Ranqing, you have never been good at hiding. The first time you saw Lu Pei, you even forgot to change your expression. It was as stiff as a piece of wood, exactly the same as when you were married. Later, when I was on a business trip, you went to find him in the middle of the night. Me, I'm really happy. But then Nie Ranxi called me and said that you called Lu Pei that night, and you came to see me because you wanted to avoid Lu Pei's invitation. I knew she was sowing discord, but she really succeeded."

"Later, you went home for your birthday. You fainted at noon that night, and you cried under the quilt at night. Then there was the birthday party. You treated Lu Pei like that, completely disregarding my feelings. Nie Ranqing, do you think that as long as You were wronged by Lu Pei, and you can get comfort from me?"

"Even so, I still regretted it. Since I was a child, it is the first time I have regretted something. I think, one more chance, one more chance, if you catch it, I see hope, and I can wait for you again Three years. At that time you said that I was not on a business trip, yes, I was not on a business trip at that time. I slept in the company for five days, I have been waiting for you to call me, you only need to make a phone call, you can find me, We will not be like this now. But your reaction disappoints me. Even if you are sick and have a fever, you would rather call Yao Mi and not tell me. Sometimes I look at you and really want to wake you up."

"But then I thought about it, maybe you are jealous. But before the idea is fully formed, you blurt out that you want to give up Mrs. Xi's position. Honey, it's so easy for you to say it. You are so I wanted to give up the position of Mrs. Xi easily, and I wanted to strangle you to death."

Xi Jinnan spoke very slowly, he sank into the sofa, motionless.He recalled the past very calmly, and his voice was so soft that it made people panic.He has never said so many words, and he has never used such a tone. The voice is obviously cold and chilly, but it is flat and lazy. He stated his thoughts for a long time like a bystander, indifferent and unconcerned. with emotion.Even when he was talking about the most exciting part, he still just moved his fingers a little, and then returned to Gujing Wubo.

This situation made Nie Ranqing feel pain like a needle prick in his heart.She stood there, her heart getting colder and colder.The surroundings were terribly quiet, and she only felt cold all over, as if she had been cursed and could not move.She held her breath, her mind was blank, and she had forgotten the action.

Xi Jinnan finally spoke again, his voice suddenly became hoarse, but still in that indifferent tone, which made Nie Ranqing more and more startled: "I've always been worried that after you know the truth about Nie Ranxi and Lu Pei's marriage , made an irreversible choice. You really did it in the end. You said that there is Lu Pei between me and you. Does it mean that what you can’t get must be the best? But what can you do if you get Lu Pei? Have you ever thought about the future between you? The future is not good, you can't get married, and he is not so brave. If he was brave, he would not abandon you at the beginning. You have not thought about these things, but I Express hints, you ignore them all."

Xi Jinnan suddenly smiled in the dark, very lightly: "Actually, your drunken appearance is the expression I most hope to see on your face. Carefree, go straight forward, and the eyebrows will not wrinkle Get up, but I can't seem to make you like that, Nie Ranqing, I admit that I have suffered a crushing defeat."

His voice trailed off at the end, as if about to merge with the air.After a long pause, he spoke again.

He said: "I tried to give you everything I could, but you refused to take it. Nie Ranqing, in fact, you only need to look back, and I can guarantee you the happiness of this life. You can squander, you can be willful Nonsense, I will be willing to support you for the rest of my life. However, although I think I don’t ask for much, it seems like a luxury, because even if I prolong the time, you still can’t give it to me in the end. "

"I've thought about it for a long time. Since I can't hold on anymore, and you have no hope of living a life with me sincerely, then get a divorce."

The final sentence was finalized, followed by a long period of dullness.Nie Ranqing was almost out of breath, as if his heart was hanging high, but now it hit the ground hard.

Xi Jinnan suddenly turned on the floor lamp next to the sofa, the darkness suddenly turned bright, and both of them squinted their eyes because of the sudden light.When he opened his eyes again, Nie Ranqing saw long smoke embers in the ashtray.

But what she saw when she raised her eyes made her heart tighten suddenly.

In my impression, Xi Jinnan has always been high-spirited and confident, and always looks like a wise man in his hands.She had never seen such a tired Xi Jinnan, he leaned on the sofa, half-closed his eyes, exhaled lightly, then stroked the center of his eyebrows with one hand, and slowly covered his eyes.

Nie Ranqing felt a sharp pain in her heart, which made her almost unable to stand.She walked slowly to one side of the sofa and sat down straight and stiff, feeling that even her bones were breathing cold air.

There was only one thought in her mind, she was going to divorce Xi Jinnan.

She actually had a lot of things to say, and these words were circling in her mind, and they kept circling around, giving her a headache.But she didn't know how to sort it out. She tried to make a sound, but it was very low, but she just said two "I" in succession.

Xi Jinnan will definitely do what he sets his mind to do.Although his tone was calm and indifferent, he was very determined.With his posture, Nie Ranqing didn't know what to do.She never thought that she and Xi Jinnan would end up in divorce. With such an ending, she didn't know what to do.In fact, she really wanted to shout loudly, did you come back after leaving home for two days to inform me of the divorce?

The floor light was bright and soft, Nie Ranqing lowered her head, her hair was hanging down again, and she was too lazy to take care of it.She felt as if she was in a prairie, and she retreated uncontrollably by herself.The surrounding bushes and weeds couldn't be grasped, only the sound of the wind whistled in my ears, making people panic.There was nothing in her stomach, and she just felt dizzy, as if the world had turned upside down.

She closed her eyes and made her last effort in a calm tone.

She said softly, "It's impossible, isn't it?"

She heard Xi Jinnan chuckle a bit, and then she heard him say: "Do you think there are still?"

Nie Ranqing stopped talking.She thought of a lot of things, but she couldn't think deeply.Those smiling faces and sad faces are like slow motion in a movie, replayed one by one, and finally freeze at the moment when Xi Jinnan puts the jade bracelet on her.Then she was stunned for a moment, as if something was stuck in her throat, and then she felt as if all the strength was lost.

She sat in one position for too long, numb and dizzy.The stomach was so empty that it was almost burning, and the sofa was soft. She leaned against the heavy pillow, raised her head slightly, opened her mouth slightly, and took in lightly and slowly.

Only then did she realize that she was about to become alone, and the sense of belonging and security that had always existed was now floating in the air and crumbling, which made people feel inexplicably flustered.She didn't look at his expression, she was afraid that when she looked up, all her pretended rationality and composure would completely collapse.But out of the corner of her eye, she couldn't help glancing over. She could see that Xi Jinnan had remained silent, motionless, and slightly absent-minded, as if he had fallen into deep thought.

The two sat like this until dawn.

There was already a faint morning light piercing the night outside, but it was quickly covered by the thin mist.Nie Ranqing looked sideways out of the window, and kept looking until the morning light broke through the encirclement with the colorful clouds, gorgeous and dazzling.

Night is the time to be crazy, she believes that if it was during the day, it would be absolutely impossible for Xi Jinnan to say so many words.And even at night, if the lights were on, he might not be willing to explain his inner thoughts to her in one breath.

Now that the dawn is approaching, Nie Ranqing's shock has long since faded away, and his sanity has gradually returned.She even had a flash of inspiration, thinking very self-deprecatingly, it seems that divorce is not a big deal.Although hasty, it echoes their lightning marriage from a distance, and it can be regarded as having a beginning and an end, in line with the fundamental sequence of things from beginning to development and then to resolution.If she readily agrees now, is this considered the consummation of the unsatisfactory?
She comforted herself in her heart and said that it was just a divorce, and the relationship between her and Lu Pei for so many years can be smoothed over time, so it is natural that she and him have only been in three years.Even if it may be uncomfortable in the future, it should be just because I am used to the life of two people, and I will feel a little uncomfortable at that time.But it wasn't like she didn't have a good time by herself.Now that he has decided to divorce, and according to the current situation, he just informed her that he will carry out this matter, so if she refuses to leave, she is doing nothing.

Since he doesn't miss it, then, so be it.

When the fate comes, it will gather, and when the fate ends, it will disperse.Everything comes naturally.

This kind of sudden Ah Q spirit is very precious and rare, because Nie Ranqing has done all the things to do next with this courage.

She lowered her eyes and took a deep breath. She understood that once the next words were spoken, it would be difficult to take them back.

But she still said it softly, and she was extremely calm: "Okay, then divorce."

As soon as her words fell, Xi Jinnan stood up abruptly.Nie Ranqing was startled, she looked up at him, Xi Jinnan was frosty, as if she had accumulated extreme anger, he stared at her deeply, then the corners of her mouth suddenly curled up slightly, that arc seemed to be Irony is not irony.

Then he flung the door open and strode away.

The cup on the coffee table drew a beautiful circle on the dark coffee-colored plane due to his action just now, struggled a few times, and finally fell to the floor.There was a crisp sound, and then the broken pieces of the cup scattered in all directions, reflecting beautiful light, shining brightly, like human tears in this dead and silent room.

Nie Ranqing closed her eyes, and she suddenly thought of the phrase "just enough is enough" that Xi Jinnan said when he proposed.At that time, he was smiling faintly, his eyes were unfathomable and energetic, his eyes were slightly bent, but he still gave people a sense of calmness.Nie Ranqing remembered that when she looked directly at him, she was almost sucked in by his shiny black eyes.

What he said at that time was really tolerant and relaxed, but they still came to this step in the end.

Thinking about it carefully, in fact, Nie Ranqing has come to this step somehow, it seems that he has not reached the highest point, but has already started to go downhill.Xi Jinnan's sense of frustration must be very strong, because he has always been invincible, and he should have kicked an iron plate against her.

As the iron plate being kicked, Nie Ranqing also felt the pain, and it was still the pain of a blunt knife cutting flesh.

Xi Jinnan has not returned home since he left that night.He has always been capable and decisive in his work, but this time Nie Ranqing waited for three days, but failed to wait for any call from Xi Jinnan.The days of waiting for divorce are quite difficult.

At the thought of getting a divorce, Nie Ranqing was lying if she said she didn't regret it.Xi Jinnan's anger after she said that, as well as his reaction to leaving home, made her think that he seemed to be reluctant.At that moment, she not only regretted a little bit, the fact is that she regretted it very much.But they have reached an agreement to divorce, and it is still voluntary.

The word divorce may be often used when other couples quarrel, but they are different.Once the marriage is on the verge of collapse, the word divorce is even more difficult to say.And once it is said, most of the time it will be irreversible.

Sometimes adults are more immature than children.Once the two sides fight to the death, the outcome is likely to be a loss for both parties.But people are stubborn as hell, even if they know that the consequences are not optimistic, they still have to go one way.If only one person does this kind of thing, it can still be saved. If both parties do this, a dead end is inevitable.

People are so contradictory.While despising his own shortcomings, he also tried his best to cover up his shortcomings in front of others.

It's not that Nie Ranqing doesn't know this truth, but it's one thing to know it, and another thing to do it.If Xi Jinnan asked for a divorce, and she cried and grabbed Xi Jinnan's sleeve or trouser leg and begged "no, no," it would be better to let her slam her head against the wall to death.

She told Yao Mi that she and Xi Jinnan were about to divorce. Needless to say, the latter was surprised, and then asked her: "Is it really irreparable?"

Nie Ranqing couldn't laugh or speak.

Giving up is often an instant thing. Once a decision is made, it is difficult to change it. It is like a one-way ticket that never returns.They figured out the direction of the future overnight, no one was directing, but followed the steps, which made Nie Ranqing feel powerless and ironic.

Nie Ranqing clearly remembered that when she and Xi Jinnan went through the marriage registration process, it had just rained that day, because it was a temporary decision, so regardless of the weather, Xi Jinnan's car was splashed by the road to the Civil Affairs Bureau.And they still cut it first and played it later. Nie Ranqing didn't tell her parents and Nie Ranxi that she was getting married until she got the marriage certificate.

At that time, there were not many people, so there was no need to queue.Later, when Nie Ranqing sat back in the car, she touched the small book inside through the soft bag, and was surprised for a moment that she was married.

At that time, Xi Jinnan asked her: "How does it feel?"

She turned her head to look at him, and the first thing she saw were the long and curved eyelashes.His facial features are distinct, only the eyelashes are extraordinarily gentle and provocative.Then he turned his face to look at her, his eyes were deep, and he smiled at her.

She asked, "How do you feel?"

With a smile on his lips, he didn't speak.She didn't answer him either.It's just that I still remember the mood at that moment, but I don't actually feel much regret.

Perhaps, never regretted this marriage.

In the afternoon, a lawyer found her. It was a gentle man in a formal suit and glasses.He stood at the door, trying to explain why Xi Jinnan just handed over the agreement to him and did not come in person, and his relationship with Xi Jinnan. Nie Ranqing smiled and stopped him from continuing: "Come in."

Her face was calm, and her heart was even calmer, so calm that even she was surprised.

The lawyer took out the agreement from the briefcase, and Nie Ranqing gently closed his eyes.Her heart hangs for days just waiting for the ending, and now this moment has finally arrived.

Nie Ranqing just glanced at the title and the first page, and then jumped over to sign.She believed in Xi Jinnan's character, and there was nothing in the agreement that would hurt her.Out of the corner of her eye, she saw the lawyer's hand raised. Nie Ranqing smiled at him and asked politely, "Do you have any questions?"

The lawyer opened his mouth: "Nothing."

She deliberately covered Xi Jinnan's name, and then wrote her own name very quickly.Very fast, almost fast, but also very powerful, each stroke left a faint trace on the next page.

After the lawyer left, she carefully hid the few thin pieces of paper in the most unknown corner, as if she could pretend that nothing happened if she didn't see it.She knew that she was deceiving herself and others by doing this, but she still couldn't help it.

She was not in the mood to eat dinner, and she suffered from insomnia again at night, but now the big soft bed was very unsafe, as if she could drown herself at any moment.This unfamiliar feeling made Nie Ranqing faintly panic. She hugged the pillow and curled up in a ball under the quilt.

Nie Ranqing and Xi Jinnan finally went to the Civil Affairs Bureau.It was the bad weather again, and the sky was so overcast that it looked like it was going to rain—it was too perfect, and even the weather matched the time of the marriage registration.

There was no words all the way, when I went in, I asked and answered, and when I came out, I was speechless. In fact, time passed very quickly, but it still seemed long.Xi Jinnan's face was sullen, she guessed that she was not much better.The two went down the steps, Nie Ranqing went to take a taxi, but was stopped by Xi Jinnan, his cool voice was familiar and far away: "I'll take you back."

He was wearing a black windbreaker, with his hands in his pockets, he looked handsome and upright, the corners of his clothes were slightly blown by the wind, giving him the texture of a black and white movie.

"No, thank you. I'll go for a walk in the nearby park, you go back first."

Xi Jinnan glanced at her, then quickly turned his head away.Nie Ranqing seemed to see bloodshot eyes in his eyes, but she was in a daze, so she didn't see it clearly.

He didn't insist, and left with a slight nod.Very decisive, the back is still tall and slender, and even the steps are terribly beautiful.

(End of this chapter)